Hey everyone! Its been a bit since I last wrote, things have been hectic over here. Gianna has her first year molars coming through and we are not getting much sleep, but thats expected. Thats why the Starbucks app is always open on my phone!
Anyway, if this is your first time checking out my blog thank you! If not then you’ve read my previous posts and know that I struggled for a bit with postpartum depression. I never opened up to anyone about it because I was embarrassed and didn’t want to be judged, and I also didn’t want to admit it to myself. A few weeks ago my friends took me out for my birthday and at dinner I finally opened up to them about my struggles and it felt terrifying and amazing at the same time to finally get this off my chest. I was shaking while I was telling them everything. Not one of them had any clue what I was going through, and their first question was ” why didn’t you just tell me”? Because I couldn’t! I could not accept that this was my life and that I was struggling to be a mom/wife/friend. But I am so thankful for these wonderful girls that when I called or texted them asking to come over, go out to dinner or watch a movie, they were there instantly. In that moment, they had no idea how much they were helping me and how much I relied on them. Throughout my life Ive always had a lot of different groups of friends, and as my life progressed some stayed and some went. Ive always had a close group of girlfriends, that have been there for me through the different stages of my life. That have seen me at my worst and at my best and still stuck by me.
When I became a mom a lot of people would tell me to get ready for my friends to not come around as much or not be apart of my life as much. It was the total opposite for me, my girlfriends were AMAZING!!! Of course, all of the mom friends that I made have been pretty awesome too. #momtribe is a necessity to get through this life. The random midnight text messages asking “is my kids poop supposed to look like this?”, or “when does the crying stop”, “is it wrong to start drinking at noon”? Questions you aren’t afraid to ask other moms because they will totally relate and not judge you at all.
My friends pre-baby bring me back to the old me which is nice. At times I sort of forget who I used to be, I used to love to read & cook ,obviously I cook dinner for my family, but I used to really cook these great meals and I would experiment with new recipes, and take my time prepping the meals and actually sit down and eat my dinner. Now I probably have a solid 45 minutes to prep and cook before Gianna realizes there is food on the counter that I am not sharing with her. But this is motherhood right? Its all about learning to live this new life while not loosing yourself and I am grateful for the girls who have stuck by me.
Thanks for reading!!
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